Reflecting and appreciating a big 2015 win - huge love for my messy & awkward...
My trainer teaches me so much more than simply how to get my workout done.
He teaches me what to do consistently to remain strong at my core no matter what slippery situations I encounter. What to hold in, how to breathe and where to focus during each movement to come through solidly where I belong.All the while, he feeds my brain with science and my heart with encouragement and stories of others who learned what I'm learning and built on that skill to live more fully.
The workouts change regularly too. He keeps challenging me to learn new skills while expanding my capacity for humility as I get to experience awkward again and again.
There is power in this awkward. The awkward moments get longer as the skill levels increase at the same time the confidence is less elusive as I learn to trust my ability to struggle and sweat and come out on the other side stronger and leaner and more flexible.
I am learning to listen to those that can teach me things well outside my comfort zone because it's this practice that shows me how to feel alive and connected and worthy and prepared to land solidly on my feet with my center exactly where it belongs - regardless of the circumstance.
The beautiful surprise about my training is that I show up prepared to sweat and be frustrated and feel beat up and alive and challenged and stretched beyond what I could do yesterday - and that feels amazing.It feels great to push and stretch and sweat and fail and fail and almost.... fail and then succeed because I know to trust the teacher and trust my mind and my body and I trust my ability to be coached because I get to see my strength grow the more I participate.I love how this practice has become a sweaty, stinky, messy, inspiring, empowering and mind blowing building block to make me stronger and fill my cup with humility and confidence that I get to pour into every single day.
The strength and the confidence are amazing but they share space with emerging gentleness. A less frustrated version of me that I enjoy being around. She's creative and smart and fun and I can count on her to show up, work hard, get sweaty and figure it out.
WIN - huge love for my messy & awkward self... She ROCKS!!